Squall's finally home!!
I don't know if anything bad would happen - I just keep getting these weird little feelings now and then, but ah, nevermind that for now.
Squall's home, and maybe things would go back to normal again, and the other students would stop blaming me for his disappearance...
October 22nd, 2006
Squall's finally home!!
October 6th, 2006
Seifer, I'm glad that you decided to stay!
August 24th, 2006
August 21st, 2006
Well....metaphorically. I found out he got turned into a lion, and I wonder....does he look like this? :O
August 18th, 2006
August 9th, 2006
Well...here goes, I guess.
I finally found Squall, after six whole months of endless searching. He'd gone into the Time Compression and had disappeared, and no matter how hard I looked, I still couldn't find him...everyone thought that he had perished; everyone but his friends and I. We knew he was still alive, but...I still remember how horrible it was, and how I thought that I would never see him again.
Six months. Six empty months of endless, meaningless searching for the one man who had saved my life over and over again, and by that time, I was already too tired to cry. He wasn't dead, I knew, but he was still gone, and...unlike Cid and the others, I couldn't move on. I made Squall a promise; I'd wait right there for him, no matter what happened, and I was happy that I had managed to keep to something like that, even though the others probably thought that I was stupid.
For the first time, I felt so much emptier than I ever did, and I really wondered if...in the end, Ultimecia had defeated us, too, by taking him away. If I had been less childish, less selfish, and I hadn't asked Squall to be my Knight, would he still be gone? And...if I searched long enough, the Fates would have pity and bring him back? Or...like those trade things, where a higher being trades a person's life for something precious in return - like all those stories, you know? And...I was willing to give whatever higher power it was anything just to see Squall again. Silly, right?
I found him through the internet, and it took all I had not to just break down and cry and do so many stupid things that I know Squall would hate. I kinda figured that...since he was still so moody, I should be happy, right? Happy enough for the both of us?
I missed him, and I didn't know how much it hurt until he spoke to me again. You know, those kind of things when you're in pain, but you get used to it so much that it doesn't matter anymore, then the pain stops and suddenly you think, "Ouch, how did I get through something like that?" I'm probably rambling, I know. But, see...Squall's back. I don't know if I mentioned it before...but still.
I haven't seen him yet, but he's around. It's the only thing that's important right now. Squall's around, and maybe it'll all stop hurting when I see him again; when I can finally apologize to him. (I can't think about what would happen if I can't see him; I'll find a way, somehow. There's always hope, right?)
So many things to say sorry for: for not finding him faster, for getting him into trouble in the first place, for being the big baby that I am, and for, well...me.